Monday, November 17, 2008

Complicating My Life

Others have referred to their mixed up families in blogs and I am always able to keep up with the "half' sibling lines and the "step" sibling lines..Why?.. Because I have my own mixed up family.....

I have an older sister who shares the same set of parents with me...she is exactly 14 months older than I am. When I was 3 months old my parents divorced. My father felt the need to pursue his music career, beer, women, beer, well you get the picture.

Setting, early 1960's and my mother was a single mom with 2 very young girls to take care of. She took a job in a bar while attending nursing school. Needless to say, she had no time for children. Thus, my father was forced to take 2 kids he did not have time for. So we lived with my paternal grandmother for a while...We lived with my father's girlfriends for a while, and there were several of them....

Fast forward 6 1/2 years....My mother remarried to a wonderful man, had a son, and wanted us back....Ok, so we then live with her for 9 years. And have a "half" brother.

Nine years later...big throws us girls out, We move to Very Small Town Nebraska when I was 15. Culture shock for a teenager to move from Big City Kansas....
Dad was remarried by then, no more kids that we knew of...

Age 16, Dad takes off the California. I stay with Step mom. Age 17, Step mom gets back with dad, they move to Oklahoma.....without me! I stayed in Small Town and finished high school.

One year later I move to Oklahoma with them...find out I have a "half' sister that is 6 years younger than I am. Didn't meet her...but Dad and Step mom divorced over that one.

I take off and say to hell with everyone and end up back in Nebraska to start my own life....

Got married, had a daughter....Dad calls me, he is remarried and has a son with new wife....Now I have another "half" brother who is six months YOUNGER than my daughter...

2oo2, Dad dies, I meet my half sister and brother at his funeral. Stayed in contact with half brother, half sister seems to have fallen off the edge of the earth or doesn't want any contact.

2008, Half brother calls and wants to move to Nebraska to get a "fresh" start on life. Okay, no problem.....Then I find out he has never lived on his own, was a state ward, and takes meds as he has been diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic.

What the F*&k have I gotten myself into????? I can not say no to family, without trying first...and he IS family....

So for the next 3 weeks I will be rearranging my house to make the office back into a bedroom. Looking for a bed and dresser to get him started. Lining up Dr's, setting up his disability, and looking for a more permanent home for him. He is arriving with nothing more than a suitcase of clothes....This is going to be a serious task and I hope I have the strength to follow through with it...

I will be updating my progress and letting everyone know how it is going as I journey down this part of my life, and am thankful for the support I have from my family here and all my friends.


Friday, November 14, 2008

Today I am wondering if it is old age or what??

I woke up yesterday morning nearly unable to get out of bed. I figured I must have relly slept in a weird position to wake up that knotted up....nothing a hot shower couldn't cure I was sure. Well. WRONG.

Ok, patient babies and lots of heat later, still not better....

Next solution..Cranberry juice and water....A gallon of water and half a gallon of cranberry juice later...nothing.

Crawled back into bed hoping to feel better today.

Didn't happen.....It took nearly an hour of heat just to get out of bed. Drink another half gallon of cranberry juice, and I am talking the 100% stuff here not the cranberry drink cocktail shit, and another gallon of water.....and still not moving well. Any idea how hard it is to try to get up to pee after that much liquid? BAH

So now I am back to thinking a pulled or knotted muscle. What the hell did I do? Nothing I can think of, so I am eeking through today hoping to get a chance to soak in the tub this evening and call it an early night. Maybe if I am lucky I will feel better tomorrow!

If it is worse I will chalk it up to old age and call the DR.!!

One can only hope...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Veterans' Day

I would like to take today to say Thank You to all the veterans in my life, the ones I know as well as the ones I do not know. They have all given up part of their lives so that I may have mine.

Doesn't matter what your political views are, doesn't matter if you personally know a veteran or not. PLEASE take the time to attend a Veteran Memorial Service, a Veteran Parade, or just look around at all the common people around you and know that someone somewhere, put their life out there so that we could have ours.....

Men, Women, Fathers, Grandfathers, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, and Friends of ANY military branch....Today I just want to say "Thank You".

Monday, November 10, 2008

Great Weekend With Great Friends

I love it when friends come to town and we get the chance to have a fun time.....
Even if it is to much fun!
My very good friend from high school now lives in Nevada so we don't see each other as much as we would like....BUT, when we do...we do it right! Not bad for a couple of 40+ yr olds!

This was early in the evening, and I took over 100 pics! We were still sober here (well kind of).
A few hours later we were livin the good life and having fun!!

Celebrating Life and Happiness

Plotting against the men To Awesome Friends !!!!

And in July we are planning to meet up in Vegas for a few days! I can't wait...have already started saving for that trip!!

Remember to tell your friends how much you appreciate them, you never know when you won't get to see them often or at all. In today's world there are so many ways to keep in touch that we all need to take the few seconds to do just that! I know I will, this weekend made me realize just how much I miss not seeing them more often......

Full album of pics on My space!!!

Friday, November 7, 2008

Changed My Mind

It is a woman's prerogative to change her mind right? Okay, so I am changing mine !!

Phooey on the bad guys and lets get on with the good stuff!!

I have chosen to reopen my blog to the world..I like sharing my day to day feelings, it is what makes me human.

I am so happy that today is Friday and a very good friend from high school is in town today! My friend from Nevada is in Nebraska!!

This is going to be a GREAT weekend. Maybe if we get some good pictures I will post them on Monday, well maybe Tuesday, Mondays are busy for me.....

And oh yea.....I got the raise!!!! The email did wonders, and it was a good one. Three years worth of raises to be exact! I gotta do that more often. ;)

This weekend L. and I are going to try to stay away from the vegas bombs and reminisce our high school days with wine.....until we both remember how sick we got on it and choose to dump it....

So you all have a great and sane weekend, while I have a crazy one!
I swear I have a hard time gagging down wine and it is all from high school.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


Okay, it has officially been decided!! There are to many gun toting, lying, low down, out right, sorry ass people on the internet....Not all mind you, but to many looking for the wrong kind of friends...
So with that I have decided that my blog is simply my diary. For my eyes only....For me to look back upon and remember the feelings of the day.

Some day when I don't have to fret that someone I tried to befriend will hunt me down with gun, I may choose to reopen it.

Today I have thought about every thing that has happened since March, and I guess I really deep down knew that when all the others were no longer around to be abused and accused, it would be my turn. But I stayed anyway....Maybe waiting for my turn, maybe not. Who knows.

But I do know that I will not stoop to the level of those who need an audience to be content. I will not live to hurt or be hurt by others. I have no desire to associate with those who will try to hurt you and when confronted, run and hide so that their new friend quests won't know the truth until it is to late....

Today I reclaim my life without internet I close blogspot and go back to my old blogging ground. Where I do not have to close out the world and let in the chosen few, but have the choice to close out only the few bad ones.

Paranoia will either kill you or send your ass to prison.....have fun with it if you choose not to seek help!